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anymore. And she wouldn't turn away. I dared imagine no more beyond that. I longed desperately, and
feared with the fear known only to a boy whose love is two years older than he is. If I took her all my
woes, would she think me a hapless child and pity me? Would she hate me for all that I had never told
her before? A dozen times that thought turned my feet away from Buckkeep Town.
But some two months later, when I did venture into town, my traitorous feet took me to the chandlery. I
happened to have a basket with me, and a bottle of cherry wine in it, and four or five brambly little yellow
roses, obtained at great loss of skin from the Women's Garden, where their fragrance overpowered even
the thyme beds. I told myself I had no plan. I did not have to tell her everything about myself. I did not
even have to see her. I could decide as I went along. But in the end all decisions had already been made,
and they had nothing to do with me.
I arrived justin time to see Molly leaving onJade's arm. Their heads were close together, and she leaned
on his arm as they spoke in soft voices. Outside the door of the chandlery, he stooped to look into her
face. She lifted her eyes to his. When the man reached a hesitant hand to gently touch her cheek, Molly
was suddenly a woman, one I did not know. The two-year age difference between us was a vast gulf I
could never hope to bridge. I stepped around the corner before she could see me and turned aside, my
face down. They passed me as if I were a tree or a stone. Her head leaned on his shoulder, and they
walked slowly. It took forever for them to be out of sight.
That night I got drunker than I had ever been, and awoke the next day in some bushes halfway up the
keep road.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Assassinations
CHADE FALLSTAR, A PERSONAL adviser to King Shrewd, made an extensive study of Forging
during the period just preceding the Red-Ship wars. From his tablets, we have the following. Netta, the
daughter of the fisherman Gill and the farmer Ryda, was taken alive from her village Goodwater on the
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seventeenth day after Springfest. She was Forged by the Red-Ship Raiders and returned to her village
three days later. Her father was killed in the same raid, and her mother, having five younger children, was
little able to deal with Netta. She was, at the time of her Forging, fourteen summers old. She came into
my possession some six months after her Forging.
When first brought to me, she was dirty, ragged, and greatly weakened due to starvation and exposure.
At my direction, she was washed, clothed, and housed in chambers convenient to my own. I proceeded
with her as I might have with a wild animal. Each day I brought her food with my own hands and stayed
by her while she ate. I saw to it that her chambers were kept warm, her bedding clean, and that she was
provided with the amenities a woman might expect: water for washing, brushes and combs, and all that is
needful to a woman. In addition, I saw to it that she was furnished with sundry supplies for needlework,
for I had discovered that prior to Forging, she had had a great fondness for doing such fancywork and
had created several artful pieces. My inttention in all this was to se if, under gentle circumstances, a
Forged one might not return to a semblance of the person she had formerly been.
Even a wild animal might have become a little tamer under these circumstances. But to all things Netta
reacted with indifference. She had lost not only the habits of a woman, but even the good sense of an
animal. She would eat to satiation, with her hands, and then let fall to the floor whatever was excess, to
be trodden underfoot. She did not wash, nor care for herself in any way. Even most animals soil only one
area of their dens, but as for Netta, she was like a mouse that lets her droppings fall everywhere, with no
care for bedding.
She was able to speak, in a sensible way, if she chose to or wanted some item badly enough. When she
spoke by her own choice, it was usually to accuse me of stealing from her, or to utter threats against me if
I did not immediately give her some item she had decided she wanted. Her habitual attitude toward me
was suspicious and hateful. She ignored my attempts at normal conversation, but by withholding food
from her, I was able to elicit answers in exchange for food. She had clear memory of her family, but had
no interest in what had become of them. Rather she answered those questions as if answering questions
about yesterday's weather. Of her Forging time, she said only that they had been held in the belly of a
ship, and that there had been little food and only enough water to go around. She had been fed nothing
unusual that she recalled, nor had she been touched in any way that she remembered. Thus she could
furnish to me no clue as to the mechanism of Forging itself. This was a great disappointment to me, for I
had hoped that by learning how a thing was done, a man could discover how to undo it.
I endeavored to bring human behavior back to her by reasoning with her, but to no avail. She appeared
to understand my words, but would not act on them. Even when given two loaves of bread and warned
that she must save one for the morrow or go hungry, she would let her second loaf fall to the floor, tread
upon it, and on the morrow eat her own dropped leavings, careless of what dirt clung to them. She
evinced no interest in her needlework or in any other pastime, not even the bright toys of a child. If not
eating or sleeping, she was content merely to sit or lie, her mind as idle as her body. Offered sweets or
pastries, she would indulge until she vomited, and then eat more.
I treated her with sundry elixirs and herbal teas. I fasted her, I steamed her, I purged her body. Hot and
cold dousings had no effect other than to make her angry. I caused her to sleep a full day and a night, to
no change. I so charged her with elfbark that she could not sleep for two nights, but this only made her
irritable. I spoiled her with kindnesses for a time, but as when I treated her with the harshest restrictions,
it made no difference to her, or in how she regarded me. If hungry, she would make courtesies and smile
pleasantly when commanded to, but as soon as food was furnished her, all further commands and
requests were ignored.
She was viciously jealous of territory and possessions. More than once she attempted to attack me, for
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